Friday, October 16, 2015

:: Front Seat of the Struggle Bus ::

I've had a hard time with my thought processes today.  I'm grieving and worried for friends who are hurting, overwhelmed by parenting and wife-ing, trying to tackle house chores and a mountain of laundry and so freaking sick of thinking about food.

This plan is just plain difficult.  I'm trying harder to take care of myself.  I have done a terrible job of it the past few years and I'm just tired of feeling rotten all of the time.  So here I am.  Still on plan. Still adjusting, but still determined.  Hey, that's something.  I'm proud of myself.  I'm not giving up.

I'm pretty much mentally spent and physically feeling blah.  I'm not worried - it's only Day 5 and I'm supposed to feel this way.  I'm excited for this time next week when I should be feeling amazing.

So yes.  Day 5 and I'm already getting bored with my food choices.  This next week, I'll be mixing it up with some new recipes as well as some "re-dos" of current ones.  Spaghetti with spaghetti squash, chili, pot roast and chicken tortilla soup (minus the tortillas for me) should shake things up a little.  I did sauté a chicken breast last night with some Frank's hot sauce and thought I died and went to heaven.  Flavor.  It's needed.

This weekend is going to be a busy one.  We're wrapping up the fall soccer season with Delia and Aidan and they both have games tomorrow.  After that, we're hoping to stop by the Sacred Harp convention for a bit.  Sunday, I sing at all three services again at Mosaic.  I'm really looking forward to it!  My mom arrives Sunday evening too, which we are all super thrilled about!  We just love having her here.  It'll be good for me to have someone around!

You guys, I'm sorry.  I feel like these posts are super boring.  I'm getting it together, I promise.  It's going to take some time to get back into this.