Wednesday, April 9, 2014

:: It's not You, It's Me ::

Aidan asked us at dinner if we like having kids or are they too tiring (such a sweet soul).


But... we explained that wouldn't have it any other way.  Yes, my kids can be tiring.  Exhausting.  And I'm afraid it shows sometimes.  But these guys...when it gets down to it...are so pleasing and wonderful.  I've been a bit snappy as of late and am really asking God to help my perspective, my mood and my patience.  All of the changes have worn me a bit thin.

But I love being a mom.

I am making a point - starting tomorrow, to slow down, take some time, find the things (and there are many) that I enjoy about each one of my children and about being a mama.  Focusing on the good and not the hard.  Put my phone down.  Look in their eyes when they speak to me and when I answer back.  Make more points to touch them when they're near me.  Give more treats just because - no because they earned it.  Reward more.  Punish less.  Talk and explain more...less quick and easy answers.

But, when it gets too much.  Find my quiet place.  Recharge.  Breathe.  Walk.  Sip tea.  Read.

More Enjoying, Less Complaining.

Oh how I love my babies.  Someday, they'll be gone from my everyday life.  I need this time to be close, as do they.

I needed to remember this today.  Thank God for my little sweet Aidan-boy.

(all photos taken 4.6.14 at the Waterfront Park, Portland)