Monday, April 18, 2011

right here.

We've been busy.  Everyday, I think of things I should blog about, but by the time I sit down, my mind goes blank.  There's just too much going on.  Too much playing, working, growing, and...shrinking.

I started a weightloss plan in March, working with a lovely doctor at a local naturopathic clinic.  I am on a strict food plan and I go in each Wednesday to weigh in.  So far, I'm at 13-14 pounds (I tend to fluctuate).  I've cut out all white flours, oil/butter, sugars, starches, root vegetables, some fruit and all dairy.  I've also cut out all alcohol, some meats and other proteins.  I know, what can I have, right?  Some of my favorite meals of late have been ribeye steaks with grilled onions, asparagus, spinach or broccoli, egg whites with salsa in a wheat wrap, water, grilled chicken breast in a wrap with cumin, salsa and lettuce, water, protein shakes (mmmmm), plenty of coffee (black), Good Earth tea, water, prawns with onions and garlic, water, and sesame Melba toasts.  Oh, and water.

The first few days and weeks were tough, but I'm almost 4 weeks into this 6-week plan.  It's fairly easy now.  I have cravings every now and then, but I'm never hungry.  My energy levels are through the roof compared to what they were before and my skin is clearer.  I'm already wearing smaller clothes, which is good for my psyche.  And those are just the outside changes.

I've never been one to take time for myself - especially once I got married and had kids.  It was strange learning how to take the time and effort to plan meals and actually put more thought about what I am preparing for myself and my family.  I almost feel a little guilty sometimes - and it was especially so in the first few days, for the time I was spending preparing, weighing and planning.  I'd like to say that I've changed a lot through these 6 weeks.  I have changed.  I am beginning to think about food differently and prepare meals for my family from a more healthy standpoint.  But I have long way to go.  I have a lot to lose, and a lot of changing still to do.  I'm not there yet and I do worry about what's going to happen once I stop my weekly appointments.  But I'm further than where I was a month ago and the only way is up from here...or down, depending on how you look at it.  :)  I struggle.  Constantly.  It's a daily struggle to convince myself that it's worth it to work this hard.  This is the hardest thing I've ever done for myself.  I don't want to go back.  I don't always believe that I can do this.  I have a lot of doubts.  Fears.  But it's a work in progress and, thankfully, I still have a couple of weeks with my doctor.  She is now my primary care doctor, so I can always call or schedule an appointment if I need to.  So, that's good.  That's what I've been up to lately.  :)  Lately, people have been asking me if I'm losing weight, so that in itself makes it all worth it.  I can't believe I'm actually doing it.

Other things we've been up to lately:


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Mariners Opening Day! [A yearly tradition.]

Liam's first haircut!

park visits with buddies



la panier in the market


smelling flowers at the Market

planting some strawberries

more strawberries

digging holes


Hop Scotch Festival

liam walks now

...that's all for now.  more to follow.  i need to get back in the swing of things!!