Wednesday, January 19, 2011

:: hope ::




1-2By entering through faith into what God has always wanted to do for us—set us right with him, make us fit for him—we have it all together with God because of our Master Jesus. And that's not all: We throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. We find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand—out in the wide open spaces of God's grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise.

3-5There's more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we're hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we're never left feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary—we can't round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!

6-8Christ arrives right on time to make this happen. He didn't, and doesn't, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. And even if we hadn't been so weak, we wouldn't have known what to do anyway. We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him."

Romans 5: 1-8

The Message Bible

--------------------------------------------------

A lot has been going on around here - so much I feel like my head is spinning.  God is continually growing, stretching me as a wife, mother and friend.  I am becoming more and more urgently aware of God's presence in my life and my need to seek Him and lean on him is overwhelming at times.  There have been times that I have felt a void - wondering if He is listening.  My faith as an adult is still very tied to my childhood faith.  I am starting - just now, to learn what my own faith looks like.  What it means to love people.  What His love means for me.  The only way I can describe it is like a crack in a doorway - just a thin line of bright light shining through, on the verge of swinging wide open and completely drowning me in light.  And although I know His love for me is unfathomable, I'm beginning to realize that... I haven't arrived.  And I won't.  Tough times are always going to be there.  I'm going to go through hard stuff.  Life is hard, but there's hope at the end of it all.  I just have to be patient.  I just have to have hope and let Him love me, however and whatever that entails.  I'm looking for clarity.  I'm desperate for it at times.  I have worries stacked one on top of the other like a huge pile of laundry.  I just keep tossing new ones on top of the ever-growing pile.  But I know, in the end, my God has me.  And no matter where things end up, He already has it decided.  And I can handle it - I really can.

I've seen grace this week.  True, honest to goodness GRACE.  I'm honored and blessed to have the friends that I have who exhibit to me day after day this Love.  Friends who are shining examples of who and what we should be.  It's friends like this who cause me to realize how much I am loved and blessed.

I'm ready to pick up this blog again as I navigate through things.  I'm feeling a sense of direction again as far as blogging goes, and I hope I continue to be inspired to share more - even if it's just for me to read back in a year to see how far we've come.

I have no closing thoughts, so I will leave you with a verse that has really helped me:

10-11"This is God's Word on the subject: "As soon as Babylon's seventy years are up and not a day before, I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. 12"When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. 13-14"When you come looking for me, you'll find me. "Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." God's Decree. "I'll turn things around for you..."

Jeremiah 29: 10-14

The Message