Friday, October 16, 2015

:: Front Seat of the Struggle Bus ::

I've had a hard time with my thought processes today.  I'm grieving and worried for friends who are hurting, overwhelmed by parenting and wife-ing, trying to tackle house chores and a mountain of laundry and so freaking sick of thinking about food.

This plan is just plain difficult.  I'm trying harder to take care of myself.  I have done a terrible job of it the past few years and I'm just tired of feeling rotten all of the time.  So here I am.  Still on plan. Still adjusting, but still determined.  Hey, that's something.  I'm proud of myself.  I'm not giving up.

I'm pretty much mentally spent and physically feeling blah.  I'm not worried - it's only Day 5 and I'm supposed to feel this way.  I'm excited for this time next week when I should be feeling amazing.

So yes.  Day 5 and I'm already getting bored with my food choices.  This next week, I'll be mixing it up with some new recipes as well as some "re-dos" of current ones.  Spaghetti with spaghetti squash, chili, pot roast and chicken tortilla soup (minus the tortillas for me) should shake things up a little.  I did sauté a chicken breast last night with some Frank's hot sauce and thought I died and went to heaven.  Flavor.  It's needed.

This weekend is going to be a busy one.  We're wrapping up the fall soccer season with Delia and Aidan and they both have games tomorrow.  After that, we're hoping to stop by the Sacred Harp convention for a bit.  Sunday, I sing at all three services again at Mosaic.  I'm really looking forward to it!  My mom arrives Sunday evening too, which we are all super thrilled about!  We just love having her here.  It'll be good for me to have someone around!

You guys, I'm sorry.  I feel like these posts are super boring.  I'm getting it together, I promise.  It's going to take some time to get back into this.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

:: Well, Hello and Stuff ::

I haven't blogged here in awhile (I do have a few posts up on a different URL...this domain name expired, I didn't renew, had to pick a temporary domain, blah blah blah).  But here I am!  We're back in business at!

Things that are happening:

- All THREE kids are in the SAME school FULL TIME for the first time ever!  I'm sorry for shouting about it.  Actually, I am not.  This is momentous.  Historic.  Fantastic in every way.  More on this later.

- We're settling into our lives here in Portland.  Loving our neighborhood, new church, friends and are even BACK on a worship team!  I can't even tell you how much this means to Ryan and I.  It's like having an arm, not using it for 2 years and suddenly using it again.

- I've decided to dive back into photography a little bit more.  I'm extremely excited to learn more, shoot more and develop my skillz.

- I started a Whole30.  I'm only on day 3, but feeling fantastic.  More on this later.

Life in general is...good.

I will be logging some blogging hours daily-ish through this Whole30 phase as I think it'll help with accountability.  Check in if you'd like!

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Hi Five, Liam!

Dear Not-So-Little Liam,

Did you know that up until this last year, mama thought we had legally named you William?  You were always meant to be Liam, but I was quite certain that you'd been named William on your birth certificate.  How about that?!  I had a good laugh over that one.  Your great-grandpa was William, as is your Uncle Billy.  I know that William is also a family name on your daddy's side.  I'll always think of you as a William-turned-Liam.  I may change your birth certificate...

Wow.  You're 5!  You have grown up so fast.  You're so different than you were a year ago.  We had just sold our house and were days away from moving away at your 4th birthday.  I felt like you got the short end of the stick.  So much was going on.  But you were happy to be 4 and celebrated with us happily and contentedly.

You are an amazing kid.  This year, you started your first year of preschool (Pre-K).  You're learning to spell, write, do math and read!!  You're also learning some Chinese and Spanish.  You're learning how to be a good friend and student.  You love to stay for lunch some days and play there through the afternoon.  You get upset if I pick you up too early and you miss "recess".  You love school and look so cute with your little green monster backpack.   You are soooo smart!!!

This is the year where I'll see the last of the "little boy" turn into a big boy.  You're still so silly, sweet, innocent and preschooler-ish in so many ways.  You love to laugh and you can go from laughing to crying to laughing in the same 30 seconds.  You feel everything so much more than your brother and sister.

You love Rainbows (a church class you attend).  You love learning about Jesus and playing with your friends.  When you make a wrong choice and I ask you to explain why it was a bad choice, you have starting saying, "Because it hurts your heart and God's heart"  Oh, bless.  You really do have a heart of gold.  You are a really great kid.

You love our church and your friends there.  Sometimes you still act unsure at drop off, but you're smiling and happy when we pick you up.

You're testing your boundaries daily.  At 5, you've learned the art of negotiation, pleading, begging and not taking "no" for an answer.  When you don't get your way, it's a huge injustice.  You just totally fall apart.  Luckily, when I don't give in (which I don't), you're quick to say sorry and snuggle.  You have such a sweet spirit, but can glare and stomp just as well.  You tell me you love me a lot, which means so much to me.  You cry THE biggest alligator tears!  You have the longest eyelashes of anyone I've ever seen.  You still can be really sensitive and shy.  It takes you a bit to get used to things and new people, but once you do, you're good to go!

You love Lego, your "ganky" (blanket), your stuffed animals and video games (discovered this year).   You love "mama dates" and going to eat lunch with daddy at Nike.  You usually have the waffles with the peanut butter/syrup sauce.  You adore french fries.  Your favorite meals at home are spaghetti, chicken noodle soup and fish tacos.

You're tiny.  I'm so glad I can still carry you around and lift you up to hug or cuddle!  You have no rear end, so your pants are always falling down.  You do the funniest little walk to try to keep them up.

You get to start ALL DAY kindergarten this fall.  I am really sad because I will miss you, but I'm excited for you to learn and play with other kids.  I've really enjoyed my time with you at home and will be really lonely without you here!  You are so ready though.  You used to be able to play all day without your siblings, but you tend to miss them more when they're gone.  You'll all be at school together, which will be really fun.  Your brother and sister will keep an eye out for you and make sure you are ok.  AND you'll get to eat lunch every day at school - which you will LOVE.  I hope you get Ms. Jackson.  She was Delia's kindergarten teacher and she is wonderful.  But have to get some pokes before you can start.  I'm not looking forward to that!

You had successful dentist visits this year.  Still no cavities ever!  You do such a great job opening up, taking pictures and getting your teeth cleaned!

We got a dog this year.  I love to watch how you can come racing over to the dog, then you slow down, and carefully pet him, barely even touching him.  Your sweet little hand barely brushes over Wilson's head and then you run away again.  You adore Wilson!

You're still an amazing sleeper.  You go to bed around 7PM and sleep until 7PM!  Before you go to sleep, you always ask for your "Kissy-coo, nose-kiss, 'yuv', 'tickle-yuv', 'arms tickle-yuv' and 'spanking-yuv' (you are so weird)".  You keep trying to add more different kinds of "yuvs", but we have to draw the line somewhere.  You rarely take naps anymore, but will always take one when you're overtired or growing a lot.  You're a great eater as well and you LOVE snacks.

I love you, Mr. Moo.  You're my baby and always will be.  I wish I could keep you at this age forever because it is so much fun!!  I can't wait to see what you do this year!!!

Love, Love, Love,